That scary moment you don’t know what the fuck you’re doing and you’ve lost familiarity. When your face looks different and your eyes look dark body is all wrong. Shrinking. Stop, it scares me. When you want out of this time, out of this current. When it’s dripping out, staining the floor. That a&j song keeps playing in your head like its fucking narrating your life. When you should put your money down now. Like it’s a guarantee. A safe option, permanent. When I need you to come and just take me away, just drive for two hours and sit with me in the darkness. When I need you to let me cry and run and scream and yell at you like you’re everything I have a problem with. Pick me up out of the ocean. Put me in the back of the car, let me sleep it out. Take me home and put me to bed, in the morning we won’t remember.