pranom, kanita, i miss you. i wish i knew you better.
there are so many people i don’t even know the names of, but we’re connected by blood and i feel like i’m missing a part of myself by not knowing them.
my third memory of my uncle, my mum and him are video chatting on his new iphone. i guess its not important to think about when you’re a kid. different is weird, but now i get lost in imagining my mum’s life and these people i know so little about. the woman whose face i remember fifteen years ago, you burned through my house months after you were gone. the fourth time you might have seen me, i was so much taller and not in those chunky platform sandals anymore.
miss you all, thinking of you.
8.45 The sounds you make when I wake you up
8.47 Your hair, your eyelids, your socks
8.50 The kisses you give me with your eyes closed before we go upstairs for breakfast
8.53 The way you curl up on the couch and wait for your coffee and your jam
9.15 We watch TV, sit, waste time, eat our breakfast
9.42 You procrastinate, and you always run just a few minutes late
10.20 But you look so lovely
10.32 We get in the car and drive through the city
10.44 You lean in and kiss me again, before you go.
A whole year of sun in my sky.
I will be wrapped up in grey for as long as I can see
With your breath warm on my neck
If I can start and finish each day like this, I am okay with knowing that even the sun will end.
I have the most beautiful girlfriend in the entire world.
Someone give us a house already please
i was just lucky enough to spend a month and a half in some of the most beautiful places with the most beautiful girl. i love you so much.
i can’t imagine anything without you.